[There's not a sliver of hesitation in the shadow's voice as he continues. His voice grows more prominent, more bitter, entrenched in echoes and more shadows -- as if he's about to reach his breaking point.]
Oh, but that's not all.
I want to know who I am. Really. This is sickening. Sense of self doesn't come from everyone else. All this persona is? A facade to show the world, right? It's not even original. This isn't my facade at all!
Everyone calling the shots! Everyone deciding that the level-headed one should lead. It wasn't because they wanted you to lead, you idiot. It's because they were too goddamn scared to do it themselves. Yosuke? Lead the team? Yeah, right! HAHAHAHAHA. Lead them right to a dead end! That moron, if he was calling the shots, the shadows would eat everyone alive. An innocent man would be dead. Hell, the investigation wouldn't have gotten anywhere, that damn homophobe would have stopped a mile outside that sauna and never turned back!
Or Chie? What did Chie care? She never did. She went because she didn't have a choice. It wasn't about Konishi, it was about Yukiko. She had one thing to deal with, and she wouldn't have paid enough attention to finish the job. Hell, without OUR help, she'd be strangled by a cable wire.
Yosuke too, huh?
But you... no, you had no attachments. Everything was just taken in stride. Because what did it matter? The year would pass, and we'd be on our merry way, to the next place we need to be. Never a second thought. No contact again.
Just like every. Friend. Before them.
So suddenly, they look to you like the leader and then it matters? Everyone is worth saving? They're worth changing for? They're worth casting your own feelings and health aside just to appease how dumb they are?
Sure. They need you. They need me. At what price, Souji Seta?
[A pause, and then thickly.] Or maybe "Yu Narukami?"
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Oh, but that's not all.
I want to know who I am. Really. This is sickening. Sense of self doesn't come from everyone else. All this persona is? A facade to show the world, right? It's not even original. This isn't my facade at all!
Everyone calling the shots! Everyone deciding that the level-headed one should lead. It wasn't because they wanted you to lead, you idiot. It's because they were too goddamn scared to do it themselves. Yosuke? Lead the team? Yeah, right! HAHAHAHAHA. Lead them right to a dead end! That moron, if he was calling the shots, the shadows would eat everyone alive. An innocent man would be dead. Hell, the investigation wouldn't have gotten anywhere, that damn homophobe would have stopped a mile outside that sauna and never turned back!
Or Chie? What did Chie care? She never did. She went because she didn't have a choice. It wasn't about Konishi, it was about Yukiko. She had one thing to deal with, and she wouldn't have paid enough attention to finish the job. Hell, without OUR help, she'd be strangled by a cable wire.
Yosuke too, huh?
But you... no, you had no attachments. Everything was just taken in stride. Because what did it matter? The year would pass, and we'd be on our merry way, to the next place we need to be. Never a second thought. No contact again.
Just like every. Friend. Before them.
So suddenly, they look to you like the leader and then it matters? Everyone is worth saving? They're worth changing for? They're worth casting your own feelings and health aside just to appease how dumb they are?
Sure. They need you. They need me. At what price, Souji Seta?
[A pause, and then thickly.] Or maybe "Yu Narukami?"
Who are you again?