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[ the thing about talking to someone who shares very similar habits and traits to his own, he can notice when someone is trying to quickly shift away from a topic or a sentence to avoid questioning or discussion. ]

I might not have had any control over how I said it, but it doesn't change that what I've said was still something that I thought. That I've felt and unfairly... projected onto you.

[ suddenly, his shoulder starts to ache terribly and it feels like it's been dislocated all over again. he can't help but raise a hand to it, gripping down hard on it to try and subdue the pain. he clenches his teeth and takes in a sharp breath before he continues. ]

... You probably already know that we're more similar than we originally thought...

[ Projected on her? That... puts a few things in perspective, and while it doesn't explain away the fact that he had those thoughts about her, it explains part of why it was such a visceral response.

Lucille presses her lips together, trying hard not to look down or away from him. She owes him that, listening fully and not forcefully smiling through this. He deserves an authentic response. ]

I didn't realize it until we started fighting. But that doesn't justify what I said or did either.

[ A quietly sardonic and self-aware smirk tugs at her lips. ]

But I don't want this to be about us apologizing over and over again about how horrible we were to each other. I don't— [ She pauses, swallowing down a lump in her throat. ] I don't want our friendship to just be the both of us constantly trying to make up for what was said.

...If you would still call it that, I mean.

[ souji continues to hold onto his shoulder, massaging it as he alternates between tightening and loosening his grip on it. he remains silent for a moment, taking in what she says. he hasn't once looked away from her since they started this conversation. at the very least, the one thing that he's good at is dealing with confrontations or these sorts of talks seriously. ]

[ it's a few seconds before he speaks up again and it's just a single question that he asks: ]

... so you still want to be friends after everything?

[ Lucille takes a slow breath, closing her eyes like she's mentally preparing herself for something. This isn't fair, Souji. This isn't fair.

Slowly, she steps away from the tree she was leaning against. Closing the space between them, the smile on her face is gone, left with a somewhat contrite frown. Looking up at him, she pauses, before rising up on her toes and lightly knocking her knuckles against his forehead. ]

You're doing it again.

[ Lowering herself down, she heaves a weighty sigh before offering an awkward smile up at him. She's been wearing her heart on her sleeve this entire time, and he's still acting like this? He's hopeless.

There are tears in her eyes (and a weird feeling in her hands, oddly enough. kind of tingly?), her voice wavering and raw. ]

What did I just tell you? I'm not going anywhere. You're really thick-headed, you know.

[ She shakes her hand out to punctuate her punch line. Get it? ]

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