tarotcards | FOURTH WALL EVENT [VIDEO/ACTION IN ICE PATH]

[ Oh hey, it's that Seta kid again and his stupid little video feeds. He's been around a lot over the network with his centre-house catching on fire, the Cleffamigos, and all that. Well, how about this one where the camera is GOING ALL OVER THE FUCKING PLACE OH MY GOD WHERE'S A BARF BAG WHEN YOU NEED IT--

After a minute of this flailing and what sounds like Souji doing a verbal keysmash, both the Pokegear and him crashes to the ground. Now with a steady and clear view, it seems as if his location is inside an ice cave- a very familiar ice cave.

Dressed in his casual wear, he slowly gets up, trying not to slip on the ice like he has done many times before in his last visit. In his last visit, he has arrived here in his PJs, so he's glad that he at least has a jacket and something thicker. Oh, let's check if he has his Pokemon on him. If it's just like last time, it's be six Magikarps. Let's seeee; ]

[ Screw you too, Johto. Screw you to Hell.

Well, Souji pulls his jacket closer and looks around. ]

Damnit, here again. Great...

[ As if the bruises and cuts from the attack a few days ago isn't enough, he'll probably get more from just slipping around here. He just hopes he doesn't meet anyone in here like last time... Well, let's go ask the network what is up. ]

Has anyone else woken up in a completely new place? Seems almost like in November...

[ Now, someone help him get to that nice rocky path and off this ice. ]

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Oh, I love him soooooo much. I don't care that he's an ignorant, rude jerk most of the time. I can even forgive that he wanted to play the revenge card that time.

Hell, I can even overlook that he's only one more rejection away from turning into Adachi.

Because... why, again? Because I'm special? Because he got me a plushie once? Because he says something endearing once in a while?

But I'm too afraid. So scared of rejection, so scared of ruining this shallow friendship that I can't even tell him how I feel! HAHAHAHAHAHA

SO I'LL JUST HIDE BEHIND CUPS OF COFFEE, HOPING HE'LL NOTICE SOMETHING SO SUBTLE THAT SOMEONE AS DUMB AS HIM WOULD NEVER SEE!

Because... well, if I do that, the pain of rejection... of isolation would cut so deep, right?!

Don't make me laugh.

[ Souji clenches his fists, trying to calm himself by breathing in deeply through his nostrils and mouth. Don't be provoked. Don't be stupid and try to punch the Shadow like last time, even if he really wants to. Don't do anything stupid. Don't do anything stupid. Don't do anything stupid. Don't do anything stupid. Don't do anything stupid. Don't do anything stupid. ]

Shut up.

[He shoves a hand in his pocket - doesn't this stance look familiar? But he narrows his eyes, lips in a twisted grin and his eyes shine.]

Why? Oh - right. I'm too stubborn to know when I'm beaten. Even when I set myself up for it!

Knowing - 'Oh, he'll never look at me the way he looks at Rise,' or thinking 'why couldn't his shadow had the problems Kanji's did.'

As if you'd stand more of a chance. As if it would change things. Saying questionable things doesn't make a man change his way of life. Partner is a nickname, never what he'll feel about me! He can't even get out of his own way fast enough when Kanji is questionable...

But it would be so nice would it? Let me just sink into him. Convince him. Let my lips do the talking until he understands that what matters isn't gender.

As if someone so shallow would ever believe that.

Heartbeat.

Heartbreak.

Does it hurt yet?

[ Souji's knuckles turn white and his whole body tenses up. He doesn't step forward or backward, feeling as if he's completely stuck in his spot- as if someone has bounded his feet to the ice. ]

[ He knows what his Shadow is sprouting is true. He knows it and it knows it. Just look at it. Yosuke has been nothing but completely against a homosexual relationship. Well, who wouldn't? It's always known as the norm that guys like girls, not guys liking other guys. ]

[ Sure, it's around and it's generally being accepted, but Souji doesn't mind as much as what outsiders might think as what his partner might think. After all, who is Souji doing this whole stupid thing for? Blowing so much money on coffee everyday, always becoming hopeful whenever Yosuke takes the cup, getting crushed when nothing happens, and so on. Rinse and repeat. For almost two whole months, still nothing. Even he's starting to think that maybe he has see the message, but refused to acknowledge it because it's disgusting. ]

[ Who knows? ]

[ But right now, Souji doesn't want to believe that. He wants to believe that maybe Yosuke can change. It's him that he's doing all of this for. He wants to at least have some kind of hope that what he is doing is not for naught. ]

[ Can't he have at least that? ]

I still have a chance. I still have one even if it's small. [ As long as it's enough for him to at least hope for something, that's all he wants. Even if it's quickly fading away. ]

You're a fool to believe he'll really change. We both know he's too ignorant for that.

Though I guess it makes the arcana completely appropriate.

[ The Magician Arcana... Souji has taken a great deal of time to study the tarot cards and figure out their meanings. From what he remembers, the Magician Arcana is one of action and being committed to what they believe. For Yosuke, didn't he believe that guys liking others guys is completely disgusting? ]

[ He dug his nails into his palm and gritted his teeth. It can easily be seen that he is so close into punching his Shadow. ]

The arcana doesn't define him completely. There are things that separate him from it.

[He pauses, and then lets out a booming laugh.]

Sure, for his arcana, but what about yours?

[ Souji freezes once again. The Fool Arcana... That's one he has read up the most on because who wouldn't be curious about it? After all, the way that Igor has called him by it, it's been impossible not to grab every little detail about it. ]

[ It's a card of a new journey, being spontaneous, having faith, and taking the "foolish" path. He pushes that train of thought out. ]

What about it?

You know the path you're trying to take falls right into it.

You mean as if it's the "foolish path" of the arcana...

[He doesn't say anything at all, just smirking.]

It'll work out in the end.

Not how you want it to, however.

As if you can predict the outcome.

It's a lot easier when I'm not denying the obvious.

FOURTH WALL EVENT [VIDEO/ACTION IN ICE PATH]

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